Wednesday, November 29, 2006
I dont know where is my outlet when I'm upset.It's been like this since tuesday morning or monday morning? since I recieved an sms from my dad telling me that he is going to continue working in china for at least the next three years before he comes back for good. NOT a great way to begin the week. and so i reckon that the last last time he was back, he wasnt angry with me because of my handphone bill, but because he feels that I dont need him anymore. ohh hello, of course I emotionally detach myself from you when ure back because you act like a whole new person, I understand that life is tough where ure working and its hard not to bring it back home but I am so not going to take it. I sent a pretty enlightening email to him just. that time was like, I tried so hard to get to you but it didn't work out well. so the last time you were back things were better already. yes I am glad. but just because of one person you are going to leave us? and you expect us to take all the crap that person gives us? remain non-chalent, understanding, unaffected and not-hurt by what she says? can't u understand I can survive without you, I can live without you, but I can't really live without you? independant as I am, I still want you around. tearing in the bus and everywhere I go on tuesday wasnt nice. or was it a monday? so lost in time. really want to get this few weeks over.5 projects off hand now... almost done with one more but it makes me left with 4? final year project isnt going well because we have once again failed to extract the DNA from our cultures and its taking up so much of our time. and the best way to actually obtain the DNA would be the french press method which our school does not have. with my mum screaming at me it doesnt leave me feeling any better. drives me crazy knowing she gets angry with me for no reason or no reason and go ranting. :(I would be selfish to say that I'm having the worst time now. but okay, I feel very terrible but I do not think that it is the worst. always someone out there having a worser time but we all hang in there and make it through anyway. okay, I wish for a hug now. and I hope that there will be someone there for me if/when I crack up. and again the same bday wish every year, I just want to be happy. (:sigh.song of the moment by lighthouse family - free, album - whatever gets you through the day
girlwithabroken(: : 22:13
