will I let this bring me down? or let this bring me up? put my inner strength to test? patience to the test? compassion to the test? I dont know what I can do for you. I can't study, I can't sleep, I feel the pain. if God brings us to it He'll bring us through it? help. I am disturbed I admit, I can't obliterate these all. if I could, I'm unfeeling and inhumane already. if anyone, anything, any soul could help. this time I really put aside most personal thoughts and feelings to try and help. I want to help. I dont like feeling helpless. I'm walking on eggshells. where I never know when it's a crack or fall. as ominous as now is, it makes me stronger. it is making me stronger. oh the pain... beyond myself.the child in everyone. the critic in everyone. the adult in everyone.the child always seek perfection, like fairy tale type of life and expectations. the way stories and tales shape the child's mind, like the books we read. gives us all hopes and dreams. the critic tells us we are never good enough, always can be better, always can be better than others. the adult consoles ourself and says it's okay that we arent that good, it's okay that things arent as perfect as we want them to be.1/3 of each in a person is good. approximately at least. more of either three wont do anyone good. always the pros and cons.remember you have no one to blame except yourself. you can't blame my sister because your marriage doesnt work out. there's always a time to stop trying.The beatles - Hey Jude
Hey Jude, don't make it bad
take a sad song and make it better
Remember to let her into your heart
Then you can start to make it better
Hey Jude, don't be afraid
You were made to go out and get her
The minute you let her under your skin
Then you begin to make it better
And anytime you feel the pain
Hey Jude refrain don't carry the world upon your shoulders
For well you know that it's a fool who plays it cool
By making his world a little colder
Na na na na na na na na na
Hey Jude don't let me down
You have found her, now go and get her
Remember to let her into your heart then you can start to make it better
So let it out and let it in
Hey Jude begin
You're waiting for someone to perform with
And don't you know that it's just you
Hey Jude, you'll do
The movement you need is on your shoulder
Na na na na na na na na na yeah
