Tuesday, October 19, 2004
Hi everyone. I've finally come to terms with my ego and everything. well, we talked on msn. hmm, i think we still miss each other alot. im not sure about him. but i think this break-up is mutual now. we're both still not ready. i met him when my life was still too screwed up. he met me when he wasn't ready to take on emotions. i sure do miss you and all the things that have happened replays in my mind relentlessly. really thanks so much. the few months we were together. too good to be true right now. too special. ure the only person I think it's worth being friends with after all that had happened. no hard feelings at least. for all the happiness then, this pain is worth it. perhaps next time when we're "older" in mentality. he'd be going into army in less than two months. yup, ure the love of my life. I still want to be there like no one else before.
I cried alot today. but after talking to him and telling him all, i feel so much better. at least i needn't keep these thoughts to myself anymore. i just need to wait for time to heal, things to change and people to grow. hehe. then i'll start thinking about r/s again. yeaps. i'll be strong. and sorry, i really don't do promises anymore. more like i dont trust myself again. precious memories to keep. thats why i still cry. i miss the times, i miss the feelings, i miss the thoughts, i miss his touch, i miss the calls, i miss the smses and i miss him... i just want him to be happy.
hope one day we'd be together. one day... not for now. but i hope one day... by fate? by God? by will? by love? by time? i wish... and i really want you to take care. im not there anymore but i still care as your gudie friend... "it's been a rainy afternoon, now i'm staring at the moon, we got too serious too soon..." but one thing, i never regreted you. just not the time yet. :)
i doubt id pass today's paper cuz i just didnt have the heart to do it. finished a 3 hr paper in less than 1hr. hehe. gd nitex one and all. God bless everyone!
girlwithabroken(: : 01:21
