the sky has lost its colour

today was a damn cold day. slept for 12 hours. as usually waking up many times in between. will be going away pretty soon.

he hates me. and he will never speak to me again. everything was thrown away just like that. I left first but I regret it totally but there is nothing I can do to have another chance. maybe if you really loved me there would be another chance but sadly, no. its not true. probably there is already someone better. that is why it is so easy so just give us up. it was us, now it's just you and me. it would never work because you didnt allow it to work. no matter how I tried it wouldnt work because you didn't want it to. so everything I did was wrong. I don't mind being wrong all the time, really. so now it's time for me to walk away. currently still standing right here, looking back at the past 1 year, missing every single thing. you scolding me for putting the pillows on the floor, and not closing the doors after I open them. hong kong trip, penang trip, our wallets, our watches, the rabbits, fishcake and fishball, ghoul and ghoulianne, smurf, tomate, chameleons, the soft toy u got for me but I havent took it home, the squid from ikea, gaming with you right beside me, plucking your brows, teasing you, the fights, the moments, the bbq, the hugs, the kisses, the fights, the talks, the tears. I have yet to stitch back the hand for the soft toy...

I really hope and dont want you to give us up. I'm sorry I didnt realise, it didn't matter what anyone said and I am sorry I always acted so strong. please tell me what I can do...

now you want me to forget, every little thing u said...