random. yesterday was totally random. dad left once again for China. I'll be missing him. the time the cab took from my home to school was precious. probably the last twenty minutes or so that I'll be seeing him. and till the next one month plus I won't be seeing him. teared quite abit till I saw a few of my classmates on the way to classes. just felt like I lost a part of me once again. rip me over. :( I sms-ed him and told him I really didnt want him to go. all he said was he works there to give us a better life, obtain the stable income and afterall money would give us (his children) more choices. he's a GREAT dad. the word great is stressed upon (: please come back soon to fill the devoided void. he told me to plan what I'm going to do after polytechnic days. hmmmm.
almost a week since I've blogged. hmm I've been happy. very happy. dad's back, everything's good, lots of projects though, he's good, I'm good and my friend's are good. :)
euphoric. and... you make me smile.too much too say. too tired already. okay I can't sleep. are these the times in the night where you start to think alot and wonder? I wonder who I am, what I am, how am I and where am I. am I weird? am I me? hmmm. I wish for acceptance I guess. isnt that what most people want? and hence we become people-pleasers? I hate my past. and forgive me as I try to. couz I've changed, I'm changed. I remember you asking me if I believed the grass was greener on the other side. yeah it's true in this case. the transition over was hard but time has done me marvels. it made me stronger, healed me, made me grow and I've learnt to look beyond. beyond myself. at first it always seemed to be, MY sadness, MY sorrow and MY life but nope, the world doesnt just revolve around me and yes, I shouldnt wallow in my own sorrow and play self-pity. billions of people in this world so surely there's much more to look our for. kept my chin up. 6 months changed alot of things for me. many many many things. and I'm really very happy now. (: bon bon bon. LOL.should really get down to studying soon. french test this week and all the practical tests next and the following friday, viola! it's maths and stats 2. yuck. the thought of it irks me. so for now happy things. bought 2 tops this week. bombed my purse. Neil Sedeka - SolitaireThere was a man, a lonely man
Who lost his love, thru his indifference
A heart that cared, that went unshared
Until it died within his silenceAnd solitaire's the only game in town
And every road that takes him, takes him down
While life goes on around him everywhere
He's playing solitareAnd keeping to himself begins to deal
And still the king of hearts is well concealed
Another losing game comes to an end
And he deals them out againA little hope goes up in smoke
Just how it goes, goes without saying
There was a man, a lonely man
Who would command the hand he's playingAnd solitaire's the only game in town
And every road that takes him, takes him down
While life goes on around him everywhere
He's playing solitaireAnd keeping to himself begins to deal
And still the king of hearts is well concealed
Another losing game comes to an end
And he deals them out againAnd solitaire is the only game in town
And every road that takes him, takes him down
While life goes on around him everywhere
He's playing solitaire
girlwithabroken(: : 02:48
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