Friday, December 24, 2004
I worked till 1am again yesterday. I'm really dead beat. knocked out during maths lecture for that 1hour and 15 minutes. spent the remaining lecture time talking to him. I'll spent christmas eve at home today, if not at my cousin's.
went towning with my dearest christie and porkie. jerky ride all the way there. the bus driver breaks 3 times before she comes to a complete stop at each bus stops. so counting the number of bus stops from KAP till heeren could just make anyone puke. laughter allowed us to resist the lovely puking sensation. I'll be working till 4am next saturday. I hope to see most of my friends even when I'm working. and maybe... ... I have a lot to type but I dont know how to put it anymore. I just know I'm growing fatter and fatter. might be going to janice church tmr. but i wont be surprised if some plans are changed.
opinionated detanoinipo. differed difference. the best of both for both is still de goal. but why are there still buts? and why the friction? and why the fiction? and why the tale? I'm doubting it all. they are changes. compromise works not. why why why why why. drowning in something I know not. bathtub-self-caused. sea. ocean. so relentless. ease the pain, seal the cut platelets, plaster the wounds, cast the broken, mould the dislocation.
I can see tha pain living in your eyes, and I know how hard you try. you deserve to have so much more. airsupply-goodbye. you would never ask me why my heart is so disguised. I just can't live a lie anymore. I would rather hurt myself than make you cry. there's nothing left to say but goodbye.
girlwithabroken(: : 16:12
