Friday, November 05, 2004
yesterday was so fuN again! thanks so much girls! hee. really super fun. and the best part is the way we eat everytime we go out. =) sakae sushi buffet. hmmm, im feeling hungry again right now. need the scallop thingy. lolz. i could eat 10 plates of that . lots of pictures and hugs too! went shopping after buffet. eunice, christie and me each got something from Top Shop. i bought a dress too... haha. those beach kind! suddenly im wondering why i bought it couz it's going to be weird if i wear if around right?? or no?? couz people seldom wear dresses right? lucky i didnt buy the pink one.. couz it's alittle revealing. shy*. thanks for helping me shop. if not i really dont know what to wear when i go out on those few "celebration days". lazed at coffee club after shopping... hee. i found a nice hand bag too and another few dresses. haha. havent bought them yet. hugs you all! so happy!
total twist of feelings when i got home for training. this time i really play till i wanted to cry. bleah. im going to leave out the details for this. yuck yuck yuck. it wasn't couz of myself. it's couz of the teamwork part. im not saying im that perfect but im really trying at least. at least someone called to check if im alright yesterday. =[ thanks so much. and he called too. so happieeee. lolz.
eileen: thanks for helping me to kick start the sms thingy. haha. =) thanks for yesterday too! =D
pork: cheery! haha. and dont feel bad you couldnt play yesterday ya? haha. i understand how you feel. my brother's like that too. =) and dont think so much ah... hugz! thanks for ytd!
pam: ure welcome! hee hee. gald you liked it. take care. rem to tell me if ure going to sentosa tmr. ^^ thanks for ytd!! muack!
eunice: whee! hugs! thanks! =D
xtie: ^^ sorry you had to send the pics for me! hee. glad you had fun and liked pressie! haha. take care! ^^
nis: hugs.. :)
will everyone stop pms-ing? sometimes i feel like saying enough is enough! it's not just one person it's peoPLE. AHHHHH! person no 1: stop it. stop trying to dig information out of me couz there's nothing much to know. just play your game and stfu. why? did something wrong and afraid that people might say smth? or do you just want to feel needed in that team? dont give me that "belle you dont understand" kind of thing. yah i dont understand so dont tell me. person no 2: well you recovered already. stopped your pms-ing. thank God. dont start again after I said this. person no 3: i deserve a chance to talk. and im really sick n tired of you being like that. like you said, i dont deserve being treated like this. i agree this time, couz im really trying hard to be your friend. didnt leak out any information. and look, when i ask questions, please dont think that other people sent me to ask. i ask for my own knowledge sake. and when i ask you questions, please dont give me vague and ambiguous answers such as some people, sometimes. stuffx like that. i really dont want to guess. so dont leave me in that kind of spot. it's not nice feeling helpless! and look, it's not just one incident that makes me like that! why not you count how many times uve vented your anger on me? i ne^er gave up trying to be there for you even though thosands of times i get rejected during these 10 months of knowing you. please... stop this. i think friendships work better without guessing games. and if there's anything you wanna ask, just shoot. why would i not tell you? what's there to hide now that ive told you almost everything? person no 4: stop saying you want to quit lar.
having said all these. im not angry, just hope to get my point across and let you all know how i feel. ='[ im not yet tired of listening yet. im not tired of being your friends at all.
all wake up please wake up. im getting some kind of emotional and mental burden from all of you. im not saying im that perfect either. gg to all. erm, thanks for listening for those who listen n read what has gone on these months to go. good nite. uh someparts got cut off again. i dunno why. nvm. nite.
girlwithabroken(: : 18:19
