Lopity: thanks for yr concern... don't worry. and you are...? i didnt study for today's paper, maybe i might try reading through. see how i feel.
Eileen: thankie gurlie... see u in school later. best-est wishes. *hugs*
not quite fun waking up with salt water at your first sight of the morning. trying to get a hold of myself but I keep waking up in the middle of the night. 5am? 7am? sleeping at 3am? figured out that even if he comes back it wouldn't change a thing anymore so no point knowing. of course he wont but... the hurts there right? and the feelings are long gone. hmm months to build, weeks to fade, days to forget. please stop telling me it's not worth it, till now i haven't thought anyone wasn't worth and worth hating. all these feelings would put more pain. at least he's happier now... that's the thing im supposed to be happy about. sorry i always promise i wont cry anymore but i still do... just cant help it any longer. running through my head running through my head...i got to know myself better, im a faithful person. i just realised that the hard way. but if i ever feel like im falling again, ill just block it off. i just wonder why 3 years for her... blah, over. i just dont want to be walking-dead again. id just like friends n stuff...
well i still feel like passing you the present then that's about the last time i wanna talk with you. sorry it's just so painful. friends sounds good but... .... haha, sry.
training yesterday was so fun! madlax was team commander. he's so so funny alright! i didnt team kill anyone till the 4th part. i bombed him twice to dead, lost nade, and some of my team mates too, dead nade. for that, he had to butt me to death so many times during warm ups. lolz. but ure still great! hehe. at least i was doing okay yesterday, not like the rest of the trainings, played like some nubcake. heeee. wheeee. really nub! like 2:24 and so on... haha!!! crap score.
I dont look at things the same anymore, I dont want to look anymore. pains me so...
the wound, the affliction, the contraversy, the torment, the paroxysm, the prick, the pangs, the memories, the flashbacks. over. over. over. over.
fuck annabelle. fuck the pain.
girlwithabroken(: : 07:44
